This evening in rolling pinyon parkland above the little town of Gardner. Quiet and silvery. I was roving at sunset, trying to familiarize myself with the birds. Shy pinyon jays keeping their distance and a lanky common nighthawk whirring overhead. Otherwise no one. The beauty radiating through me, stopped near a hill crest and looked around. “Is this what you want?” the question came unbidden. The answer on its heels took me by surprise: “No.”